Now, I don't. Dream about writing, so much, but I enjoy the rare book that makes me become a different person and feel a different way, even if just during those moments when I lie in the lukewarn bath, too engrossed to force myself out.
November 2008 Archives
I've been meaning to write about my trip to Callaway Gardens with mom for ohhh 10ish days now. But life keeps happening and overwhelming me with it's lifeyness.
This weekend, I'm taking an extra day off and my mom and I are heading to Callaway Gardens for the Fantasy In Lights. We were going to stay in the Mountain Creek Inn, which is a fairly standard hotel located on-site, but a ways away from the garden entrances. At some point we decided to call and see if we could get into the Lodge and Spa, which is a definite upgrade, and were told they were booked. We called back this past weekend to see if we could get on a waiting list, just in case, and were told they had an opening - so hooorah!
I'm super excited about the whole trip. It's only a few hours a way, which is perfect for a weekend getaway. AND there's a butterfly conservatory. AND a heated pool. AND free breakfast. I love some free breakfast, seriously!
I'm always looking for some kind of fresh start. I'm hoping this serves as a catalyst for so many things.
[redacted] I don't play the corporate game very well, and I think that bodes poorly.
I really want to drown my sorrows in food and/or booze; but I'm trying not to, which makes me want to more.
I wish I hadn't lost my ability to compose paragraphs.
This book is interesting, but not exactly similar to what the cover suggests. The book focuses more about the rewards and implementation of a Results Only Work Environment, and while it's a cool concept that I think everyone who has a job would appreciate, it's just not something implementable as an employee.
i've been trying to develop (find?) a sense of balance in my life.
this is hard, because i tend to do everything obsessively.
i find a good book, then read in every spare moment til it's finished.
i stay up too late perfecting a blog design (only to never post)
i listen to the same song/album on repeat for weeks on end.
i'm not sure how to change. i don't think i'm good at it. i think because i want everything to be different suddenly. i want to wake up a new person in a new place with a fresh outlook. the part where change is work and you have to stay you and make the barely perceptible baby steps towards some end goal is boring and practically intolerable. i feel like no tiny change is ever going to amount to change i need.
it does. i know this. i just don't feel it.
so i'm pushing myself and trying to hold myself accountable. trying to remember the tiniest of things matter. sharing matters. being me matters.
